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I am an entrepreneur. This is not something that I think about myself, I know this without a shadow of a doubt. But there is something about that statement that feels frightening.

For the last 2 months I have been taking a class on how to properly conduct my business and how to build my business so that it will be sustainable. While in this class I've learned a lot about how to start a business, what you should do in order to financially establish a new business as well as how to create a business plan. But when it comes to the point of building a customer data bases I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand and sinking...FAST! This is mostly because of my relationship issues. It wasn't until this very moment that I discovered that this was an issue.

Having and running a successful business relies heavily on the ability to sell, and I do know how to sell however, that bone is temporarily disabled. One thing I did learn in class is that we should tell and not sell, but even that has a certain amount of persuasion that's involved and for me I'm not really a persuasive person. I'm more like ask nicely and let it be.

Being here is teaching me some things about myself that I knew, but I'm having to be forced and pulled off the fence. One being that I'm only aggressive in certain situations. Being in business requires that you are aggressive, in a smooth none threatening "come look" sort of way. I do know that I've had that quality but for me that looks like displaying what I have and allowing others to take the lead on seeking out the goodness. I realized this approach won't work. I mean it could if I was selling socks but that's not the case here.

I honestly have 2 businesses, 1 job and a potential to work for "Lift" as a driver and I need ALL of my avenues to yield me a pay off. Having a relationship with ME in order to find out how to allow my businesses to prosper for me is a absolute MUST. I have so much riding on these things and I KNOW they will work, but I don't know how to get out of my own way to making sure they do. I'm a good person on the inside and out but this is honestly the 2nd most confusing period of my life. Its like being lost in the woods. My compass still works though. And it tells me I should "talk to everyone that comes."

(that was a message from my morning meditation that just revealed itself) 😇

I haven't given up. I cant give up, so the only and next best thing to do is to keep fighting, so I strap my boots tighter, and tighten up my amour! The war WILL be won!